breathe.

there is an old chinese proverb 

One moment of patience may ward off great disaster.  

One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.

No words ring truer, for me, then these.

take a breathe.
breathe.
in.
out.
&& repeat.

know that its not over yet.
know that you can come back from this.
you can come back from anything.


never expect.
never assume.
never ask.
never demand.
just breathe.


life has a funny way of working itself out the exact way its meant to be.


you'll spend days wondering why, how.
you'll spend longer saying when.

don't try && understand everything

because sometimes its not meant to be understood

but accepted 

accept it.


now take what you've been given 
&& make something better


in this moment now. capture it. remember it.

don't let you dreams just be dreams

it really fucking hard
to look past the short term and into the future
to not rush today and ruin tomorrow
to be patient and humble and ready

its really hard,
when you know what you want and not be able to do it
to want more then you can handle

but i guess the secret is
anything worth having is worth fighting for
anything worth having is worth waiting for

it just feels like ill wait forever.

how much do you want it?

you need to ask yourself
how much do you really want it
how long are you going to go through life working hard, for nothing
when you can work 10% harder to get your reward
the biggest mistake people make it mistaking motion for progress
the simple fact is,
a rocking horse has motion. but makes no progress.
and if your just rocking up to training
and going through the motions
your no better then that rocking horse
you have to work harder the that
find your limits
then trample them beneath your feet
you can't just turn up to training
you have to push
you have to work
you have to have desire, belief, trust, honesty.
otherwise, you'll look back in 5 years time and realise
the only thing you have achieved
is wearing a hole in the floor beneath your feet

i dare you to take a little pain

when you start settling for anything thats not the best
thats when its over
thats when you can tie your shoe laces together
and throw them over the telephone wires
make them as far out of reach
because thats where your dreams and goal will always be

in this sport, its not about enjoying life
its about being the best
its about eating oatmeal for breakfast even though you don't like the taste
its about running an extra rep even though you have nothing left
its about staying at home recovering even though you haven't seen your friends in months

its about sacrifices
its about discipline
its about hard work

its about crawling and fighting your way through every set back

its about being the best

most battles are won not in the limelight of the game
they're not won when the crowd starts cheering
when the clock starts ticking
not even when you cross that line

most battles are won somewhere between the hours of self-inflicted pain and agony and the hardest sacrifices.
they are won when I'm training my guts out rather then going out drinking with mates.
they are won while i'm doing extra reps rather then complaining about the pain
they are won when i refuse to be defeated
rather then rolling over and giving up
victory is not achieved on one day
victory is achieved at every single session
victory is working harder then your competitors
victory is believing harder then your competitors

victory is only given to those who work harder then others believe is possible.

"Champions do not become champions when they win the event, but in the hours, weeks, months and years they spend preparing for it. The victorious performance itself is merely the demonstration of their championship character."

only winners are remembered

knock knock.

who's there?

the guy that came second.

the guy that came second who?

exactly.

if you rush today, you'll ruin tomorrow

i am a person who likes things done straight away
as fast as possible
as best as possible
all the time

but I'm beginning to realise,
this is bigger then anything i have every targeted.
i haven't made it in the past,
and why?

not because i was not good enough
not because i was not strong enough
not even because i was not courageous enough
but because i was not patient enough

Good things come to those who wait,
if you want fast results
all you'll get is short term results

this life isn't about today, or tomorrow
not even about 3 months from now.
we need to start seeing the world in terms of years
not months or days
seeing the short term
doesn't help the long term

and after all,
in terms of running
isn't what i do in 3 months time more important then what i do today.
or next week.

this is my moment
to define who i am and what really matters
to see past whats right in front of my face and to look into the distance

this is about knowing what i want
becoming who i need to be
and more importantly
believing in my ability

i will become what i know i am

never be satisfied

When you put so much of your life into one thing,
its hard to surrender when it is threatened to be taken away from you.
I've been told to surrender
to let it go
to set free the very dream I've spent the last 3 years of my life working to achieve.

here's the thing that makes life interesting,
specialists may say one thing,
and others may agree
the odds may be stacked against me,

But what the specialists don't know is that
THIS ISNT A MATH TEST
this an a completely different kind of test
one where PASSION has a funny way of trumping LOGIC

they were very clear about not offering me false hope
but tell me
when has there ever been anything
F A L S E 
about
H O P E

no one can tell me what i can and can't do
what a can and can't achieve
what my body can or can't endure

the only person who can tell me i can't is ME
&& i don't have to listen.

Start where you are, 

with what you have. 

Make something of it 

&& never be satisfied.

As long as I have a want, I have a reason for living. 
Satisfaction is death.