it really fucking hard
to look past the short term and into the future
to not rush today and ruin tomorrow
to be patient and humble and ready

its really hard,
when you know what you want and not be able to do it
to want more then you can handle

but i guess the secret is
anything worth having is worth fighting for
anything worth having is worth waiting for

it just feels like ill wait forever.

when you start settling for anything thats not the best
thats when its over
thats when you can tie your shoe laces together
and throw them over the telephone wires
make them as far out of reach
because thats where your dreams and goal will always be

in this sport, its not about enjoying life
its about being the best
its about eating oatmeal for breakfast even though you don't like the taste
its about running an extra rep even though you have nothing left
its about staying at home recovering even though you haven't seen your friends in months

its about sacrifices
its about discipline
its about hard work

its about crawling and fighting your way through every set back

its about being the best

most battles are won not in the limelight of the game
they're not won when the crowd starts cheering
when the clock starts ticking
not even when you cross that line

most battles are won somewhere between the hours of self-inflicted pain and agony and the hardest sacrifices.
they are won when I'm training my guts out rather then going out drinking with mates.
they are won while i'm doing extra reps rather then complaining about the pain
they are won when i refuse to be defeated
rather then rolling over and giving up
victory is not achieved on one day
victory is achieved at every single session
victory is working harder then your competitors
victory is believing harder then your competitors

victory is only given to those who work harder then others believe is possible.

"Champions do not become champions when they win the event, but in the hours, weeks, months and years they spend preparing for it. The victorious performance itself is merely the demonstration of their championship character."

only winners are remembered

knock knock.

who's there?

the guy that came second.

the guy that came second who?

exactly.

Every minute

And if I was to be totally honest with you
I'd tell you I hate it
I hate training
I hate running
I hate competing
I hate losing
I even hate winning
I hate it all

But I'm addicted to the way it makes me feel

What I can only assume a drug addict feels
You hate what it does to you
You hate what it's doing to your life
But you can stop
Because you love the way it feels
The way it makes you feel

So you can't stop
You just sit and wait impatiently for your next fix
Knowing how much you don't want to
But also how much you NEED it.

And as much as you hate it you know you wouldn't have it any other way

Athletics is my drug

the question isn't "how much more can you take?"

But "how much more you can give?"

Just when you're ready to quit.

Your mind says "push harder".

You listen, sensing an inner strength that wasn't there before.

&& suddenly you discover -- you no longer feel pain.

only a burning desire to do what others cant or wont.

only a burning desire to win.

The only things that overcomes hard luck is hard work

i just don't feel like they see the talent i have.

it's not even about athletics anymore, 

its about proving them wrong.

Words are nothing without the actions and convictions to provide foundation.

watch your thoughts,

for they become words;;

watch you words,

for they become 

actions.

"all that we are is the result of what we have thought."

Death before dishonor

Its not difficult to realize the impact of attitude in our day to day life. Sometimes, attitude is more important than facts. Personally, I never expect to lose. Even when I'm the underdog, I still prepare for victory. The most important thing to realise is that we have a choice regarding the attitude we will wear for a particular day. Attitude changes everything. The last of the human freedoms is to choose ones attitude in any given set of circumstances and its amazing how much it can change things.

Attitude is a choice.

A decision you make when you choose to be better.

My attitude toward my sport has been so caught up with times, technique, perfectionism. I have forgotten the most import thing of all. My love and passion for what i do. My attitude shifted from loving what i do to watching that clock. 2010 has brought with it the wrong set of values and attitude and i will not be able to go far this year unless i make the informed choice to change it.

You cannot tailor make your situation in life, but you can tailor make your attitudes to fit those situations.

Why worry about times? If you train hard you'll not only be hard, you'll be hard to beat. So put you fucking head down, get to work and hit that starting line knowing you did absolutely everything you possibly could to prepare yourself for victory.

Ordinary is BORING.

Its not about the shoes.

its about knowing where you are going,

not forgetting where you started.

its about having the courage to fail,

not breaking when you are broken.

taking everything you have been given

&& making something better

It about work before glory.

&& whats inside of you.

Its doing what they say you cant.

Its not about the shoes.

Its about what you do in them.

Its about being who you were born to be.

My better is better then your better.

Some people listen to themselves,

rather then listen to what others say.

These people don't come along very often.

But when they do, they remind us once you set out on a path,

even though your critics may doubt you,

its ok to believe,

that there is no "cant" or "wont" or "impossible"

They remind us its okay to believe,

Impossible is nothing.

Running Free

I beg you to sit back and take stock of your life.

Think about all the memories. The good and the bad ones. And the insignificant ones. Think about your epic failures. And your greatest achievements. Take stock of all the people you've hurt, and those that hurt you. I beg you to just take a minute to think about everything that really matters to you.

Your fights with your best friends. Your goals you didn't achieve. The insignificant memories you've forgotten. The mistakes you never learnt from.

Are you the best person you could be? Are you patient, kind, loving, caring. Forgiving? Can you wipe your hands to the past and better yourself in the future?

Now, remember your greatest success.

Did you savor that moment or did you rush on in a blur of excitement over your own glory?

I rushed mine.

So overwhelmingly excited that my failures were all behind me. So disillusioned into thinking that i never had to deal with struggle or pain or failure because i had shown myself that i CAN achieve anything i set my mind too. I thought all my hard work had finally paid off and i can start taking it easy and it will all take care of itself.

wrong.

The minute you hit the top their is only one way to go.

Down.

And its enviable. Sure, you believe you'll always be on top, you have too otherwise you wont last for a second. But in reality, once your on top, the entire world has now put a target on your back. They're going to be after you like there's no tomorrow. Yeah, one day people will catch you. One day you will fall from grace. The hardest thing about being on top, is staying on top. The key is to be prepared for the fight to stay on top for as long as you possibly can.

You wont win every time. But its important to never expect defeat.

Enter every activity without giving mental recognition to the possibility of defeat. The minute you start thinking about losing, you've already lost. Once your on top, you have to work harder then you ever had to in your entire life just to stay there. All eyes will be on you and the pressure will wear you thin. You will need to be strong. Humble. Courageous, in victory and defeat. But never forget who you are. Or where you came from. Never forget that success that threw you into the spotlight. Remember those who stood by your side when you were less successful.

After you've worked hard to get what you want, take the time to enjoy it.

Don't let your passions become your job. A chore. Never lose your grip on your love for it.

Its only then you can truly be freeee.