Guts

i ran at uni games yesterday on a strained hammy.
its been stuffed for about 3 weeks now and i recently re-hurt it on monday while being a idiot.
so i ran yesterday, despite every bone in my body telling me not to
so nervous of actually tearing it and having to sit out another month
but lucky for me, i still won
honestly, its the first time in my life i actually thought to myself, "hey, im pretty good at this"
because i jogged, and i mean JOGGED, and i limped over the line, almost hopping, and i still won by a bit.  yeah, competition wasnt amazing, obviously, but there were still a couple of girls in the race i consider to be decent hurdlers.
and apparently i ran my 4th fastest time ever. ahah but i jogged and limped literally the whole way and i think it was closer to 14.6 then 13.6. but how electronic timing stuffed that one up ill never know?

some time you have a run of bad luck,
for 6 weeks ive been injured
probs another 2 weeks easily still to go.
ive competed twice,
through pain you couldnt even understand while being injured.
because when a good opportunity comes up,
wether your injured or not.
you need to work out just how important is that comp to you.

honestly, if its important enough.
id run through anything.

the question isn't "how much more can you take?"

But "how much more you can give?"

Just when you're ready to quit.

Your mind says "push harder".

You listen, sensing an inner strength that wasn't there before.

&& suddenly you discover -- you no longer feel pain.

only a burning desire to do what others cant or wont.

only a burning desire to win.

outside pressure and expectations is the motivation required to be the best.

you have to expect things of yourself before you can achieve them

hope.

hope can unite people
destroy people

or in my case
keep me breathing

hope brought me back from the brink and rewarded me far greater then i could ever imagine



great north city games babbbeyyyy

out of my control

hope is a dangerous thing for an athlete to have

my sport is your sports punishment

I'm on the track 11 hours a week
I'm in the gym 5 hours a week
I've got yoga 3 hours a week
&& pilates 3 hours a week
Pool sessions 4 hours a week
Recovery session 7 hours a week

Then I'm expected to be at uni 6 hours a week
Study 5 hours a week
In the kitchen 14 hours a week
&& an extra 7-10 hours cleaning and washing

I'm up before 6 making lunches
I'm in bed around 10
2 hours a week is spent in chiro
&& Another hour is spent in massage

Not to mention i walk the dog 7 hours a week
spend about 9 hours a week getting ready, showering etc
&& I'm required to have 4 hours minimum every day as "down time" between sessions.
where i am supposed to do very little mentally or physically hard (which i generally dont get)

which leaves me 53 hours a week to sleep.
divide that by 7, giving me 7 hours sleep a night.
Thats if i'm lucky && everything goes to plan.
which it usually doesn't.
But every minute i spend doing something "fun" away from this schedule is a minute less i get to sleep.

&& If you were to ask me if it was worth it.  
I'd say yes everytime.

so how about you fuck off and give me a break
you wouldnt know what hard work looked like even if it punched you in the face

☆☆☆

the shine of which has caught my eye

now is not the time to dwell on he past or rush into the future

now is not the time to worry about winning or even worry about racing

now is not the time to enjoy a welcomed break or let the mind wonder

now is the time to prepare for battle

now is the time to push yourself to the point of death

now is the time for the hard work to get harder

now is the time to make sure those mistakes NEVER happen again

now is the time to remember how it felt

now is the time to show a little courage

now is the time to stand up against the odds 

now is the time

now is my time

less then two years to go

i know what i want

I have no idols. I admire hard work, dedication and competence.

it doesnt matter if you want to be

club champion,

state champion,

national champion,

world champion,

olympic champion,

whichever of the above,

a champion is someone who gets up,

even when they can't.

you dont win races, at any level,

without some form of hard work